Which one comes first: the chicken or the egg?
One response is that both are a miracle.
I realized yesterday that I was putting a lot of pressure on myself that I didn't need. I was thinking, without being totally conscious of it, that I needed to find 30 people interested in participating before I could hope to find any funding for the Catacomb Churches.
This is simply not realistic. Thanks to a good conversation with Ryan from Church of the Beloved I realized what I was doing to myself and I feel much better today.
Luther called this the "mutual consolation" of the people of the church. We all need some help getting our balance once in a while and I needed it yesterday.